You're not a weirdo first of all, just let me clear that up. I am going to say this once so please read carefully, what exactly did you do to be recently recovered? I know, that's hard to answer, yet, if you can think about what might of helped you have a healthier diet you can gain weight in the right body mass you have.
Have you seeked help other then your own? It may help to seek a doctor and ask about a diet plan that can benefit you. Knowing that you can concentrate on looking healthier. I know, it's hard having to eat, yet, in order to do that you need your reasons to. Is there anything out there you want to look forward to in the future. Because with that being said I assure you if you continue the process you are in, you may become to weak to continue.
i want to remind you that sometimes when you starve yourself your body will hold on to the extra food for energy. That in itself is not good because not only does it store energy but it will keep it as fat. As long as you maintain to just eat a snack at breakfast, lunch, and dinner and you can be refilled in the sense of not being to hungry..
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