I've been working at my job for two years now (the two year anniversary will be Friday; my starting date was 6/6/06) and I'm attached to it in a strange obligatory way that pisses me off. I wish I could just quit without feeling bad about it.
The thing is, my management treats me like pure shit most of the time. They attack me about meeting my sales goals, and they are very degrading. One time the Human Resources/Sales Manager came up to me and said, "You guys are doing rotten today."
Is that acceptable for a Human Resources Manager?
My Store Manager took me back to his office the other day and was just being a dick. At our store, we are required to open a certain amount of store charges with customers. This is nearly impossible for me in the department that I work in, as I see few customers and most of them already have charges anyway, and those who don't do NOT want one. Anyway, he told me that if I don't start taking opening store charges seriously, I should start looking for a new job now.
Why the fuck would my store manager tell me that? I'm one of his very most valuable employees who has been in my department the longest. I am the trainer for my area and also have a management position. I've called in sick twice the entire time I've been here, and I am a damn good worker.
We don't receive constructive criticism. We receive insults.
Another thing. I hardly ever get weekends off compared to other employees. In the last 32 weekends, I have gotten three full weekends off. In the last 11 weekends for a newer associate, she has gotten SIX full weekends off. How fucked up is that? Also, my hours have been cut (along with everyone else in the company) so my paychecks have been about $150-$200 less every two weeks. That's a lot when you're living by yourself AND going to college and paying for everything on your own.
My question is, why the fuck do I feel guilty about finding a new job and leaving them? Just thinking about putting in my two weeks notice makes my stomach ache. I have no idea why I should feel the least bit bad about leaving the shithole that I work in, but I do.
Grrrr. :(
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