I started cutting on Aug 23, 2007. This is the day that I left for college. I never thought I would ever cut. I have never felt so much guilty pleasure in my life. With each cut I feel the stress lifting off my shoulders. I feel the endoephans rising in me it gives me so much of a high that I don't need to smoke right now. I sat in my dorm room for almost 3 months before I steped out into the college scean.
I left school because I got wraped up in Smoking pot, drinking and cutting.
My parents blame my boyfriend for me leaving school they think that I left so that I could be closer to him.
I stoped cutting for almost 7 months.
I moved in with my boyfriend
His mom went to Jail- I cut 1 slit
His mother is making him move to P.A- I cut 4 times
I have many feelings of hate twords my mother, his mother (I still love her she was there for me when my mother wasn't), and a few of my friends I don't know why
I carved my boyfriend's name on my knee, His mom saw it and asked what happened I told her I wrote on my self with a dead pen (she bought it) So I started cutting in places were no one would see.
My mistake-
I cut my left wrist and my sister noticed told her husband, then told my father. MY father said nothing to me. My mom just notised today (almost a week later) She has said nothing to me yet. I don't want her to.
I want to stop but I rather cut myself then drink or smoke pot at times.
I have taken 2 shots of 80% proof vodkka.
If I didn't drink I would never be telling anyone. Owell
Just Don't Judge Me
Post edited at 9:01 pm on June 28, 2008 by aGIRLunknown
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