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I'm at school now...I got here Thursday but didn't see my roommate until yesterday just as I was getting ready to leave for Canada. I just got back and she's in here with two of her friends watching a movie and I don't know what to do. I miss my boyfriend so terribly much, I want and need him so badly right now but he's too far away. I'm having an anxiety attack and need to cry but have no where to go. They're just talking amongst themselves, not really paying attention to me, and it makes me feel so awkward that they're kind of just excluding me. I don't think they're trying to be mean but they're just kind of...keeping to themselves... I don't know where to go tomorrow, either (I'm staying at the school's Inn, off campus). I might just take my car instead of the bus, I don't know where it drops you off and I don't want to be late. I'm too scared to ask my roommate about it with her friends here... And I just got back from a horribly stressful trip to Canada that I should never have taken with my Dad. He yelled at me three times in 48 hours and threatened to beat me up and leave me behind. When I asked him what I'd done wrong (all I'd been doing when he started verbally attacking me was resting in bed), he responded, "You aggravate me." Please...just let me survive this week...please let me figure out the bus schedule and the campus and get to know my roommate...please don't let this be a mistake...I don't know if I'm emotionally strong enough for this... Is anyone else having a hard time? I'd really appreciate some advice and/or words of encouragement, I'm trying, very hard, not to break down right now. 
------- "Under the hardness of her facade a woman's heart is still beating."
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6:14 pm on Aug. 31, 2008 | Joined May 2005 | 273 Days Active Join to learn more about Majo Pennsylvania, United States | Straight Female | 6417 Posts | 11122 Points
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Vintorez
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Quote: from Majo at 9:27 pm on Aug. 31, 2008
I'm IMing him right now and he's trying to calm me down as best as he can. I just miss him so much, he should be here with me. They asked if I saw the movie they're watching and I told them I have and they asked if I wanted to watch and I said I did. Then I offered them some chips and they declined and that was it, they're just sort of talking with each other as if I don't even exist. Believe it or not, I'm afraid now that my Dad is gone. Even though he's mean and abusive, he's familiar and now that he's gone, I'm on a new campus around new people 300 miles away from home and I'm scared. I'm a Sophomore, I just transferred and this campus is bigger than any other campus I've ever been on.  
Well was there anyway you could have gotten involved and contributed to the conservation? Well he may have been familiar, but it wasn't healthy, now's your chance to make things better for yourself. I know the transition of it all will be hard, but I'm sure you can cope :) If you need someone to talk to on campus, there's usually a counselor there that's there for these type of things, you can talk to them and maybe get some helpful advice from them as well
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( Majo )
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No, I think we're all Sophomores but they were here last year, I wasn't. I mentioned not knowing where I'm going and they didn't seem to react. My roommate doesn't know where the bus goes, either, but she knows the campus so it doesn't matter as much for her.
------- "Under the hardness of her facade a woman's heart is still beating."
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7:45 pm on Aug. 31, 2008 | Joined May 2005 | 273 Days Active Join to learn more about Majo Pennsylvania, United States | Straight Female | 6417 Posts | 11122 Points
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Vintorez
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Quote: from Majo at 10:45 pm on Aug. 31, 2008
No, I think we're all Sophomores but they were here last year, I wasn't. I mentioned not knowing where I'm going and they didn't seem to react. My roommate doesn't know where the bus goes, either, but she knows the campus so it doesn't matter as much for her. 
since tomorrow is labor day, you should get out and try and find your classes and get to know the campus on your day off. and you could look up the bus schedules on your schools website and familiarize yourself with that too
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jamescoleman
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You'll get tough over time. Just think happy thoughts and try to get over it. They're just words and alot of other people will ignore you or talk to you wrong. If you show weakness then they'll use it against you. As for your dad, fight back.
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