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I am stuck at home right now. I am disabled because I blew my knee out. I am home alone from 8 am. to 4 p.m. then from 5 p.m. to 12 a.m. because my fiance goes to school and work.
I cook, I clean, and I wash. I didn't have enough money to wash my own clothes so I just washed his. So, I have to go another week with no clean clothes. I get checks from the government but I give them to my fiance because he is the one paying the majority of the bills. So, I never have cash. I have to ask him for money.
I don't care about money. I just ask that the one hour we have together, he spend it with me. He is either on the phone or IMing his friends. I have no human contact. And he has the car because he goes to work and school. So, I have no way to see my friends. My friends would visit me, but they live 2 hours away. My family? They are out of the picture.
I just want him to talk to me, cuddle with me, show me some type of love.
I am tired of being alone. I am tired of this. I have anxiety, depression, and PTSD. My therapist said it is a horrible idea to be left alone for so long.
He can't sleep in the bedroom with me. He says he gets claustrophobic. So, I have to sleep alone in the bedroom while he sleeps on the couch in the livingroom.
He bought me a kitten so I wouldn't so alone. WHich I apprepriate because I love him dearly, but it doesn't replace him. He has put a fear in me. I live near a mall and he told me how many car break ins there were, how many girls were raped, and so on. So I don't even want to leave me apartment. I am just so sad and alone. I just want him to be around with me. This is the last week he has to go to school, and he swears he will be better. But I doubt it. I told him how I feel, and he says that I am just over dramatic. I told him I wished he knew how I felt, how hard it was. But he didn't care. I am just so sad. Post edited at 5:53 pm on July 21, 2008 by lingerie gurl
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Sounds like you're in a terrible relationship.
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zamrambo
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Not a fun situation. Maybe try meeting new people around you?
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I told him to go back to sleep if he knew what was good for him....
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Your Fiance goes to school and work?
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You should tell him what you just told us.
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Ah, I'm so sorry. Have you talked to your boyfriend about how you are feeling and what you are going through??
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I have told him. I told him right now. Amd its like he doesn't care, he says I am having one of my swings.
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why dont you try and find a job. it would get you out of the house.
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I am taking online courses with a private university, but it doesn't replace human contact.
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that sucks, i am so sorry.
start some sort of project, get a job.
you need to find more of a concrete purpose.
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i don't mean to sound insensitive but can't you get crutches or something?
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